Don't Look Back In Anger

Okay, so I know I said no more late night posts. But I'm going to have to retract that from my previous entry because this is really the only time during the day when I can just clear my head and write without distractions. Augh, listen to me! I sound sooooo busy...I didn't mean for it to come off that way.

Anyway, for those of you who don't know...I'm really not into Korean music, but a friend sent me some tracks from Alex's album "My Vintage Romance." And for some reason, it made me feel the same way that Michael Buble makes me feel. It makes me feel girly Mind you...I have NO IDEA what he's saying most of the time...but the style of a lot of his songs makes me feel...girly. hahaha...and that's a good feeling! Anyway, so the big Korean music curse has been lifted from my virgin ears :)

Sidenote: I don't know why I refuse to tell anybody about this blog...because I still write as though someone's reading this. That's embarassing.

I just read a friend's blog and it was really amazing to read what she's been thinking about RE: her recent move to Otown. And it got me thinking and reflectinnnnnnng because I've been really blessed with the people I've met too and the invaluable opportunities I've had that I know I wouldn't have had anywhere else. Sometimes I wonder what my life would've been like if I stayed in Toronto. And despite my wild imagination - I really can't imagine it. And I think that alone is a testament of the heart that the Lord has been refining in me over the past four years. There hasn't been a single moment that stands out...it's been this gradual shift (with small moments of comparable significance), that I can't even imagine anything being any different. Bc the Lord is good...

Anyway, I did a Bible study on Friday with my high school group on free will vs. predestination. Man, I've got to say that they are way too cool. They are all so opinionated...actually, more so convicted in their beliefs that it really keeps me on my toes. I worry sometimes that when I get serious and tell them what I think, they get awkward and silent because they don't want to disagree with me...but I guess that's the price I have to pay for being the lone adult in the room....

In any case, it's getting later than I anticipated. So, I'll leave this here. Have a good night...ps: David Choi smiled :) and now I think I might be in love.

Something about a birthday...

So, yesterday I let it slip that I started a blog. And honestly, I had a bit of a panic attack because I was ashamed of the lack of effort I had put into this. So, I decided to add another post to this embarassing blog...in case someone outs me....

Anyway, yesterday was a really great birthday. It was a weird day...but a good day :)

For those who don't know - OC Transpo (our public transit system) went on strike. And it snowed like crazy the night before. So, I was forced to take the 30 minute cab ride in rush hour traffic, or 30 minute walk in the crazy snow to my exam at 9am. So, being the super trooper that I am...I bundled up and headed out into the snow. I arrived just in time...for NOTHING. They ended up starting the exam 45 minutes late (to accomodate for the students who were expectantly going to arrive late). After sitting there for 15 minutes I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs..."C'MON!" But i didn't. I just waited and waited...looking over my notes...and looking over my shoulder at the 50 other students who had managed to arrive on time. Seriously, c'mon.

Anyway, I finished the exam (quite successfully I might add) and ran out of the room with a post-exam twinkle in my eye...only to step outside and remember...I have to walk back home. If it wasn't for the fact that I had just written an exam, I would've cried the entire way home. On the bright side, I'll be able to tell my grandkids about how "when I was your age, I had to walk miles and miles in meters of snow just to get to school!"

Jan took me out to Benitz for dinner...it was yummyyyy :) Had cornish hen and creme brulee...and some random drink made with alize :) Got my presents - a gold necklace and earrings, and Pride and Prejudice miniseries with Colin Firth (definite highlight!). Then, in Joo family fashion decided to go grocery shopping...seriously, I feel like we go grocery shopping ALL THE TIME. But we had no food at home.

So, my phone had been acting up all day, so I finally had a chance to catch up on my msgs, emails, and txts. Got home and skyped with J, L, and C.

Funny story: Ray, jan and I recorded a christmas card for mom to read on christmas when she's in mali. So, we got ray on the phone on the computer and we harmonized "merry christmas" but because he kept hearing an echo...he was always behind by a couple second...so it sounded like..."merry, merry, merry CHRISTMAS (supposed to be altogether).........christmas (that would be Ray thinking that he was singing on time...)!" This would happen EVERY single time we did it. Oh man, I laughed for like an hour. Actually, I'm laughing thinking about it. It's probably one of those things where you need to be there. But it was funny nonetheless.

I think from now on, I'm going to refrain from posting too late at night...because this is almost more embarassing than just having a single entry per month. Back to my take home :(

First Blog Day

I'm a slacker. And I'm not your conventional do-it-at-the-very-last-minute and do-a-half-ass-job kind of slacker. I'm the kind that relishes in my procrastination, only regretting it for about 10 minutes before I slip into the zone. I can spend 5 days or 5 hours working on the same paper and end up with relatively comparable results. Generally, people who see me on a regular basis aren't aware when I have an exam or a paper due the next day because 1) I don't tell them and 2) I never appear to be too concerned about it.

Now, don't get me wrong. Just because I don't look it, doesn't mean that I'm not feeling it. Unfortunately for those who've lived with me, caught me on a busy Sunday morning, or called me while I'm working through my lunch break...they know atleast not to bother me. I get angry. And I'm probably not really angry at you, I'm just really locked in and can't be bothered by you.

So, here I am. about 9 oclock on a Tuesday evening and I just finished two back-to-back nights of essay writing and am looking forward to another late night...and I decided to start a blog.

To be honest, this is my fifth attempt at starting a blog. I started a video blog on youtube in the summer but that lasted all of 3 minutes before I shut it down because I ran out of things to say. The irony is that I don't really have anything to report...so most of my more keener readers wil have already figured that this is a manifestation of my procrastination. manifestation of my procrastination. But truly, I'm a huge blog reader (of blogs belonging to friends, pastors, artists, politicians, etc.) so I thought I would make my debut with absolutely nothing to contribute hahaha. Regardless, I wish you all (all three of you) to know that there's a lot to look forward to - including recaps of significant events in my ridiculous life, latest discoveries, words of encouragment, and irrational rantings. I can't guarantee that I will entertain or enlighten, but I sure will give it my 45% mediocre effort. Mind you, it's not because I'm lazy (I love writing!) - I'm just keepin it real.




This would be Ray keepin it real in Otown.